I'm tired now, it's mile 1:(

So much for all that bragging about not being tired- today was the sorriest, draggiest two hours and fifty two minutes ever.
Yesterday I went to Cornwall park to run my workout by myself- something I hate! I hate it because I am a weird person who thinks that everyone in the park will look at me and smoke and jump in front of me- which they would not do if I had a teammate or a coach! Ahh, screw that next time I'll just bring my cat, Sneakers. My workout was 2 times the 3k, 2k, 1k and I was supposed to run around 12:18 for the 3ks, 8 minutes for the 2ks and 3:50 for the 1ks. The loop I run them at Cornwall is 1k and it goes by way faster than the track to me and always will no matter what Joel says- "it's the same distance!" yeah, yeah, yeah, in reality, but not to me. Running the 3k at the park means only having to do 3 laps instead of 7 and 1/2. I ran the whole workout faster than my goal times, probably because I couldn't wait to get done with it. My times were 12:13, 7:59, 3:44, 12:03, 7:50, 3:41. That was no problem. I went home and despite the horrible pain of going up the stairs (typical for me, really, usually I just get on all fours like a dog) I was fine.
Fourteen hours later I had to run twenty miles. We were working around my work schedule so I had to do it today as my "medium long run." Two days off from work meant workout and medium long run. On Saturday I would do another 30 mile long run. To me this doesn't seem like days off. My running takes hours and then I am so tired from running I can't do anything but eat and be tired for hours afterward. And man was I tired, from step one, I knew this was going to be a long one.
I do not like the term medium long run to describe my run today. I call it really long run. Runs like last Saturday and next Saturday are really really really long runs and this one today was a really long run.
Every step seemed more tiring than the one before it. I'm really glad I don't have to go to work because I don't think I could stand for five hours to save my life but I wish I could do something fun with my day off too. Right now sleeping is the only thing that sounds fun.
Joel says this is why most people don't make it to being a great runner. I hope I make it.